It feels like no matter what I accomplish I’ll never be happy with where I’m at.
Recently it felt like I was starting to get good at chibis and found my own style but then I look at other chibis that are better and cuter than mine and then I get like…cold feet on myself? Like I want to abandon everything I thought was okay because I wanted to chase a popular person’s style. And, the feeling is exacerbated because I haven’t been able to get my foot in the ground for anything, I’m always standing in mud, sinking down and looking up at everyone else above me.
I will chase, forever, unsatisfied.