This bullshit is really pissing me off lately…
I have a form of eczema called dyshidrosis where little itchy blisters from on your hands and feet which become rashes and your skin gets..like.. hard, I guess? Shit’s SO fucking annoying. When I was a teenager it used to be really bad, where my skin would flake off and become raw to the point where I couldn’t touch anything with my fingers without burning pain and had to wear gloves to do anything. It’s gotten better but it;s still shitty so YEAH
Then there’s my fav condition called CDDD (cervical degenerative disk disease) which I got diagnosed with at 20 but have never been able to treat it because LOL ANYTHING INVOLVING MEDICAL SERVICE COSTS TOO MUCH MONEY…. so I’ve learned to live with and make accommodations for it, it fucking sucks changing your life to suit a god damn condition. Like fuck off, it’s my body not yours. Why do I have to change what I do to suit YOU? Get the fuck out of my spine you piece of shit. Anyway this disease causes the disks between my vertebrae to deteriorate, what this translates to is that any pressure on my spine causes me pain because there is little left of the disks to absorb the weight. This means I can’t sit up straight in chairs and small things like wear necklaces or shirts that are too close to my neck. So I spend my time slouching and it’s really embarrassing sometimes because general etiquette says that when you slouch you’re being rude, but like I LITERALLY CAN’T SIT UP OR ELSE I WILL BE IN PAIN. And I can’t really go “oh sorry I have X medical condition” every time I have to explain myself so like… idk it’s annoying sometimes even though I haven’t put any weight on my neck at all (slouching all day) my neck STILL decides to hurt.
Oh and I also have hyperhidrosis which makes you sweaty. ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Shaking hands? I can’t do that. Wearing any kind of closed shoe without socks is a potion to knock anyone out the moment I take my shoes off. Wearing light-coloured shirts that are too close to my armpits? yeah no. shit’s more wet than a fucking swamp in a minute.
fuck this shit. it could be worse but hey I’m not gonna get into a pissing contest about who has the worse conditions.