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¤ June 3, 2018 ¤

♬ Sex sells

This post pertains to: Thoughts

Lol I haven’t posted anything to my porn blog in a month because of my fucked up wrist, yet I got 32 followers now, when I left I had like 5 or 10.

Meanwhile my real blogs don’t get nearly that many followers posting daily/every other day for months.

Gotta get those pornbux

♥ Posted at 3:50:11 am CDT

¤ May 30, 2018 ¤

♬ Jury duty

This post pertains to: Miscellaneous

I had jury duty yesterday which wasn’t fun but it was an interesting experience. I had to be there at 8:30, I went to the Daley center in Chicago. They ushered us into a large room and gave us panel numbers, then we went to the corresponding rooms of said panel numbers, which was 36 people per room.
A lot of time was spent waiting… the judge seemed nice though. We got interrogated about stuff and I said some foolish things. Then we had a lunch break at 12, I tried sitting next to this lady but she said I couldn’t because she was “discussing baking information” like I gave a fuck.
I sat next to someone else who eventually left and another lady came over. She started small talking me and I got extremely nervous/anxious. I told her I was in jury duty and she offered to buy me a coffee which was really nice of her but I declined. After I told her I was an illustrator she said she needed a book illustrated and we exchanged cards. She did end up buying me lunch at McDonalds which I’m really grateful for, I ate it very quickly.
I tried returning to the courtroom but I got very, very lost and ended up being 5 mins late. When I tried opening the door, it was locked, so I felt very embarrassed and just sat outside the room. When another man who was out in the hallway on his phone opened the door, I realized that I had opened the door on the right -which was locked – the left one, which the man opened, wasn’t locked.
I was extremely embarrassed…
After the interrogations were over, the judge called two people back to be interrogated further – me and another person. Since the case was a car accident case, I discussed how the car accident I had last year made me biased. So I didn’t get picked.
I went home with $17, yay. Then I had a nap and I ate at Red Lobster.

I wrote a very simplified Japanese version of this post:
首になりましたので! やった!!!

♥ Posted at 4:41:05 pm CDT

¤ May 10, 2018 ¤

♬ Lewds

This post pertains to: ArtUpdates

So yeah, I draw porn now, I want to say it started in mid-april, I was bored of stuff i was drawing so I somehow gravitated to porn even though ive been too embarrassed to draw porn my entire life.

Well, since I started posting it on my pixiv I get at least a few followers a day, haha. its pretty fun, but… I probably have to keep it a secret because it’s shota porn, and so that’s legal grey area and all that regarding CP.

but i’m not hurting anyone and im having a blast so im gonna keep doing it.

♥ Posted at 1:18:43 am CDT

¤ May 5, 2018 ¤

♬ So much for abandoning social media…

This post pertains to: DepressionRantsThoughts

I’m still fucking addicted, I have an issue. I need to stop. Stop! I don’t need likes! I just want to share things with people I like. What’s wrong with me?

I miss talking nonsense about stories I’m creating that no one but me understands, why do I have to pretend I’m some kind of different person when I’m on social media? Why do I crave fucking internet lovelove points?

I want to update this blog more with my thoughts and feelings, maybe I will be less depressed when I’m able to express myself instead of continually holding it in and wanting to scream how depressed I am on social media.

I hate how I depend on social media for self-worth, and I hate that it’s consuming me. I hate that it’s needed in today’s world to promote yourself and get seen… I don’t know what to do.

♥ Posted at 6:36:16 pm CDT

¤ January 27, 2018 ¤

♬ Snails on my face: A Not-So-Korean skin care post – Part 2

This post pertains to: Consumerism

So it’s been a little over a year that I’ve been into skin care (aka Asian Beauty subreddit) and I’ve learned several things, I’ve been through a lot of products and I’ve at least found things I can call “HG” (holy grail) that I will repurchase over and over. I’m still trying to formulate a good routine sadly but these products are tried and true.

  • Cosrx Advanced Snail Mucin 96 Power Essence (100 ml) – This shit is the bomb. It heals my acne so well and it’s really easy to spread, it’s not sticky or anything. I mix one pump with 2 drops of Stratia Rewind.
  • Stratia Rewind (30 ml)– It’s very, very subtle effect. However, when I stopped using it thinking it wasn’t working, I noticed that the lines in my face became more prominent. But I really like the effect it gives and it’s moisturizing too.
  • ZYMOGEN Houttuynia Cordata Ferment Serum (105ml) – This serum really helps keep my acne at bay. I stopped using it once and I broke out. Then another time I dropped and broke the bottle, my skin was horrible after that until I replaced it. It’s a ferment though so people susceptible to fungal acne can’t use it.
  • SCINIC Honey All in One Ampoule (250ml): This is AWESOME! It totally brightened some PIH that was bugging me for the past several months, in no time. And I only have to use a little. Everyone says it lasts forever, I can believe it.
  • Stratia Liquid Gold (60ml) – I will never not buy it. It’s perfect. Lightens up PIH and moisturizes so well.
  • Shiseido Senka Aging Care UV Sunscreen SPF50+ PA++++ – Not greasy, doesn’t smell, easy to apply. It’s just simply good.

Other things I’m trying atm that I either don’t like/am unsure of:

  • Stratia Fortify: Honestly I only bought this cuz there was a Black Friday sale and I like Stratia products so I thought I’d try it. I don’t really know if it does anything for me. Its main purposes is to moisturize, anti-inflammatory and reverse UV damage. I currently mix 2 drops of it with my Zymogen serum + tea trea oil. It’s also the worst smelling stuff I’ve ever had in my life, you get used to it after a while though. Will Not Repurchase
  • Kikumasamune High Moist Lotion: I fucking HATE this shit. I bought it because my bottle of Hada Labo Gokujyun was running out and I decided to try the other toner that people rave about. However this was a mistake as I really really hate this. It’s extremely watery and after you apply it it’s sticky. I can’t stand it! It has a pump and it can get messy and spray product too. Will Not Repurchase
  • SCINIC Honey All in One Ampoule 250ml: I bought this for Christmas but I haven’t been able to use it yet since I’m trying other products out. I like honey products so hopefully it helps. It is good for moisturizing + whitening. HG now!
  • Cosrx BHA / Cosrx AHA: I ran out of my previous BHA and AHA (Paula’s choice) so I figured I would try Cosrx. I have been trying to purge a shitton of closed comedones that Holy Snails Shark Sauce left me with. So far, I have indeed been purging them slowly; at least it’s working in that regard, but I still have a lot left over.
  • Cosrx Overnight Honey Mask / Cosrx Wash Off Rice Mask: Sleeping masks don’t seem to do anything for me so I won’t get any more. Will Not Repurchase
  • Laneige Lip Sleeping Mask: It’s overpriced chapstick. Will Not Repurchase
  • MIZON All in One Snail Cream: Yeah so this is a product I purchased the first time I did AB and was using it wrong. I don’t know why I want to try it again after being unsure if it did anything for me, I guess I want to just give it a second try since I fucked up the first time. So far unsure if anything’s different. I haven’t particularly noticed anything. It is rather cheap, but I’ve only used it for a month and I used up half of it already. I think I get better usage from Cosrx Snail 96 Essence. Will Not Repurchase

So, in short, my current routine is:


  • Wash face with water
  • MIZON All in One Snail Cream
  • Kikumasamune High Moist Lotion
  • Cosrx 96 Snail Essence + Stratia Rewind
  • Zymogen Houttuynia Cordata Ferment Serum + Tea Tree Oil + SCINIC Honey Ampoule
  • Stratia Liquid Gold + Cerave Moisturizer
  • Shiseido sunscreen


  • The Face Shop Rice Water Bright Cleansing Oil
  • Cerave Foaming Cleanser
  • KLAIRS Supple Toner
  • Cosrx BHA & AHA (20 min wait in between)
  • MIZON All in One Snail Cream
  • Kikumasamune High Moist Lotion
  • Cosrx 96 Snail Essence + Stratia Rewind
  • Zymogen Houttuynia Cordata Ferment Serum + Stratia Fortify + Tea Tree Oil + SCINIC Honey Ampoule
  • Stratia Liquid Gold + Cerave Moisturizer

It seems like a lot of products I know! But it works for me right now.

♥ Posted at 12:31:47 pm CDT